Hey it's my birthday day!

Yep, another year older and not much wiser. Had a great day so far, God was particularly sweet to me. Talked to Donna and got my first happy birthday of the day from her. My sister and my brother called, great sermon at church, fab worship (guest singer and all my favorite worship songs), good lunch, gonna have a great dinner, the sun is shining and I feel loved by all my family and my good friends (thanks Cyndi for yesterday and your ewishes today).

God blesses us every day, it's whether we choose to acknowledge it or not. I praise you God, not just because I'm called to do it out of obedience, but because I truly want to. You really are the ultimate father and I'm glad I'm your child.

Autumn is here, kinda

Well, it is autumn here. We haven't had true summer-like weather since the end of August. But still, the nights aren't chilly enough to really call it autumn. Maybe it's more like we are fall-ing into autumn (I know, groan). All I know is, it is my favorite time of the year weather-wise. My fave season was, is, and most likely always will be Christmas.

I guess I better start figuring out what we are going to do Thanksgiving since we are down to the 3 of us. Les said let's just go to Denny's. EWWWW!!! I'd rather go to McDonald's if we are going to go that route, which we aren't. Makes me wonder what it will be like when the girls are gone. I've always imagined big dinners at my place, all the grandkids and extended family gathered 'round. But who knows, I moved away from my mom to Guam. Now that I'm on the other end of the stick, I realize how lonely she must have been not having all of us kids together at holidays like when we were little.

Well, I guess I'll just have to make sure the girls want to stay near, not quite sure how I'll do that but I have at least a couple of years to figure it out.

Done been broked

80 days has done been broked, yep, yep! It puts me 10 days closer to seen my Bun. I am near the eve of my birthday and it will be the first one I've spent separated from her in 20 years. Can't say that I like it, nor can I say it'll kill me. I need to get off before I get maudlin.

Around the world in 90 days

So, three more hours until they'll be home in 90 days. Cyndi said time is flying this morning. I don't know if I agree. Time seems to have slowed down to a crawl in some ways for me. The weekends fly by and the evenings sail through, the days themselves crawl. I sooo just want for her to be home. I'm missing Donna so much. I know when she gets home she'll be in my pocket for 2 maybe 3 days and then she'll be back to her usual schedule of never home. But at least I'll have access to her. I can look in her room and see her sleeping. I haven't been this lonesome for her since she first left.

Maybe because the conversation we had this morning sparked it. She is feeling discouraged with life away from home in a foreign land and misses familiar things. It's part of the process of being gone. I went through the same thing when I moved to Guam, except it's an US Territory so some things were the same. I missed milk, the milk plant on island reconstituted their milk with coconut milk, yuk. I like coconut but not all dairy products are supposed to taste like it. So anyway, on a small scale, I can relate.

I just pray for her to not be discouraged, it will pass and I pray for me to be encourage that she is safe in God's arms. If they can't be mine, what better ones to snuggle in?

I love you Bun.

Yikes!

Wow, that last post sounds angry. It's not how I meant it, I'm just worried and scared and that what I sound like when I get this way.

Sorry.

Boy was I wrong

So I said I would be fine once they got to York. Except I hadn't heard much from them since Bath, so ya, Sunday or Monday is the last time I've have more than a "Hi, we're here and we are alive." conversation with Donna. In fact the last time I had any contact with her was Thursday afternoon around 2:30, I got a couple of texts. I've texted her 3 times and left a message on her cell, which did ring and not go straight to voice mail. I'm not sure whether to be nervous for her well being or ticked or???

This is just so incredibly FRUSTRATING!!!

Okay, so it's lunchtime there, maybe they are getting settled into their flat and checking York out, though I would think she'd have her phone on her. Or maybe they went to London to pick up their luggage they left behind at Scott's, who by the way, is a SAINT! But even if that was true, she would still have her phone on her. So I can take this two ways, maybe three. 1)She doesn't have her phone on her because it's charging. 2)She does have her phone on but can't answer it because...(I got nuthin, I don't know why she wouldn't answer her phone). Or 3)The old favorite my brain dredges up, she can't answer the phone because she's a)been kidnapped and is having awful things done to her, b)been hit by a lorry and her phone was lost in the rush to get her to the hospital, or c)simply laying dead in a ditch.

Ya, that is but a small insight as to what goes on in my very fertile brain when I don't hear from my loved ones. With Les, her dad, it was always, he got smeared on the freeway and they were having trouble identifying him to call his closest of kin.

Donna, do me a favor and just send me a long email telling me what's been going on the last few days so I'll be put out of my misery.

I love you a lot....more than you know.

Mom