So we just got back from dropping Donna and Aaron off at Long Beach airport. They fly to Germany by way of Atlanta. I'm so glad that Aaron will get a chance to see his folks tomorrow, it's been a year and I know he misses them terribly. They will get into Frankfurt, Germany on Monday at 7:40 am (Europe time). I know that they will only be gone for two weeks and we get to pick them up on the Friday afternoon they get back, but we have Duncan, their kitty, and taking care of her daily will remind me that they are not here.
I know it is stupid and totally illogical, I don't get to see them except maybe once or twice a month now. But, I know that it's the beginning of the clock ticking, the clock keeping time for when they go for good to Landstuhl. I just can't seem to get behind this mission they are going on. I know it's selfish and it's going to happen whether I want it to or not, but I just can't help myself.
There are a few people that get it, that understand just how heartbroken this makes me. But the majority go on and on about how we can skype and how much God will use them and what a great opportunity for them to see Europe. And my brain knows all of that, but my stupid soft heart just spasms in agony over the mere thought of it.
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The goal is not to harden your heart so that you can bear through this. God gave you a soft heart and the ability to feel deeply for a reason, and your empathy is one of your best qualities. He will instead teach you how to channel the painful parts into full reliance on Him.
"Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort those who are in trouble, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God" 2nd Corinthians 1:3-4
I am praying for you momma san.
-Bun
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